I think I'm finally at a point where I'm content with what I've got written for songs. Some of them are a bit cheesy, and I think I'll probably do a bit of re-writing, but I think I'm happy with them, for once. I always criticize myself when I write, but I think these songs best describe what I want. The hardest part I'm having is getting a song to be the opener. I want something that'll get you stuck. Something that'll make you want to listen, you know what I mean? I've chosen each track for different reasons, and I think I've got a balance of topics, themes, and tones. But I don't think I'll be able to put them into a track listing until they're recorded, cos they may not flow right in the way I have them now.
So, here's what I've chosen, and I'll elaborate on them all a bit. Though, nobody ever reads my blogs anyways, so I guess I'm writing to nobody but myself, but whatever.
"Mending My Broken Heart" is a song that kinda references to loving someone you can't have. In a sense, it could be a gay person wanting a straight person, which is what I wanted to refer to a bit, but not completely. I think this song came out fantastic, and I am just really happy with how it came out. Like a lot of great songs, it's better sung than read. I wrote this in January of 2008.
"Saturday Morning Cartoons" is a fun song, but I really don't know how happy with the verses I am. The chorus references cartoons as being a drug. The bridge works, but the verses just don't really go, and I think that this will have a re-write before I think of recording it. I came up with the idea while watching a marathon of Pokémon after I bought all the DVDs. I wrote this in March of 2008.
"Closer" is a strange song, that's kinda bi-polar, and doesn't really know what it wants to say. It's perfect though, up beat, in your face, fun. I love singing it. It was written over a few days. I came up with the first verse, and that's it. Then wrote the second verse. Then I finally came up with a chorus and bridge to complete it a few days later. I wrote this in August of 2008.
"Love Me Love Me" is a song I wrote while I was high. I got into a fight with a friend over stupid shit, and felt like I had no one to call to talk to. And though I was in an altered state of mind while writing it, looking back with a clear head, I didn't want to change a thing. I wrote this in August of 2008.
"Better Than You" is a song I wrote about a friendship that had gotten kinda rocky, and eventually ended up in me and that friend having a split. Things eventually healed, but this song still feels right, and it still feels like a great way to just bash any other past friends who were just no good. I wrote this back in July of 2007.
"Fragile Heartbreaks" is a song I wrote after just singing. I was singing some lines, and thought it sounded good, and eventually wrote the verses, came up with a chorus, wrote the bridge, but still didn't know what to call it. So I sang it, and the line about fragile heartbreaks stood out, so that's how it got named. I don't really think it has much of a meaning though. I wrote it in June of 2008
"I Hate Myself" is probably the most personal song. I was feeling horribly down, and really hated every aspect of my life, and really wanted to die. Not necesssarily kill myself, but just for everything to end. This is probably the only song I didn't change a single line in. Everything flowed out, and I only added a line at the end of the chorus after finishing the bridge. But adding isn't changing. This song got more attention than any song on deviantART, which really made me feel good about myself and my writing. I wrote it in November of 2008.
"Alone" is a song you have on your album, don't have much emotion behind, but it's just there. Though it still has emotion. It's a song about surviving, and living on, alone. Yes, kinda sappy, but still a good song, despite a bit of cheese. I wrote it in August of 2008.
"You, Me, And Waterfalls" is probably my favorite song, specifically because it was the first song I wrote that got put to music, and the first I ever recorded in any way. It was shortened from it's original lyrics, mainly because the original lyrics would've taken 6 minutes to sing. In the end, the final version has the best lyrics, and worked best. It's probably the closest to a gay relationship I've ever written. I don't focus on it, because it's a stupid thing to focus on. But this can be taken other ways, wanting to be with someone people don't approve of, or anything like that. I wrote it about being with someone, and just enjoying every moment despite what others may think. This is my oldest song for my album, written back in October of 2006.
"Baby Blue Eyes" is a song I wrote about a hopeless crush I had. Some people may know who it was, but despite that, it was someone who I was never going to get with. When he talked to me, he made my heart melt; when he walked in the room, my knees were weak. Yeah, it was a schoolboy crush, but whatever. The song was a fictional take on the fictional relationship that could've fictionally been. So the song is complete fiction. I wrote it while looking at a picture of him, staring into his blue eyes. I wrote it in May of 2007.
"Paint By Numbers" is a song I wrote to music. I had a tune, and had nothing to go with it. This song fits perfectly, cos it was written for that tune. It's a simple song, not much to it, but has a good, and simple meaning to it. I wrote it in March of 2008.
"Thank You" is a song written by my grandmother. I don't know how to play it, as I was never taught, and I've never heard her sing it. I love this song, and I really hope I can make it work. I've heard how the song is supposed to be sung, and I want to use that tune, and a similar instrumental, and sing it with the exact lyrics. It will be the only song on my album that is not written by me.